i am the epitome of daffiness

It's beenso LONG

2007-07-22T11:38:00.000+08:00

It has been so long, i mean this summer vacation. Still experiencing internship and playing less samba, but trying to spend more time with family and kaiwei.

Sighs, now my mind is all about work and work. Feeling really inadequate at work. I wished like mad i could be better.

counting down 4 more weeks to end of internship. ...

2007-04-26T21:47:00.000+08:00

Hello!

finally updating after months and months. Got the chance to write this entry because i am lying slumped in my bed with a stiff neck and shoulder pain before i got really bored. keke!

4th day of internship at TH. Kinda like the work there because I am really learning things. But maybe it is still too early to say

sighs. life's and samba is busy. til then

Love u guys

2007-01-26T01:15:00.000+08:00

no entry. because i am too tired.

2007-01-24T00:50:00.000+08:00

Hey all those reading ( if there are any!)

i am selling some tshirts here.

3 designs. "Play with Me", "Good Looker BAD LIAR", "i hate muggers"

1 for $12
2 for $22
3 for $30

Can mix and match! Also available in ladies and mens tee!
Pls call me at 98559265 if you want the tshirts! Tks alot!

2007-01-03T07:58:00.000+08:00

2006 is over but i have not got enough of it.

the christmas week passed damn fast. one of my favourite time of the year, with alot of rain, may favourite.

but it was well spent. Sad that it is over, but all good things come to an end, i think.

Now looking forward to a new but stressed school term.

Happy New year again.

2007-01-01T17:23:00.000+08:00

Happy New Year everyone!

May there be less disasters and more health and wealth coming your way!

Okie. it sounds super cliche

it feels terrible to be a year older liao! I hate the year of the pig because it only means that i am 24 this year. sigh.

Anyway, i hope i can update this blog more often when the school term starts!

I have not forgotten all my friends/family and i want to thank some special people for being there for me for the past year.

Tks Jeffrey, Zhiwei, Steven, Renee, mommy, daddy, Hailing, Lishi and lastly Josh. I love all of you. I dont know what i would do without you guys!

2006-12-17T15:40:00.001+08:00

We played at the Radio awards 2006. and it must say it is a pretty good pic! =)

2006-11-19T11:04:00.000+08:00

Just received news that my friend's mom had passed away due to an illness. Even though i am not very close to this friend, but i can feel how he is feeling and it is just so sad.

Actually, everyday, I will think of what would happen to me if someone close to me pass away. Almost everyday. so much so that i think i am morbid. But am i really morbid? If we don't think about it and try to avoid it, would the shock of the demise of a loved one hit you even harder?

Would we also try to cherish the time we have with the them? i think i can safely say no. With "death" as the taboo word at the back of our mind, we will probably think that we can just carry on with life as we always did, uncaring of whether did we spend any time and effort with our loved ones. as cliche as it sounds, do we have to wait until they leave this world before we know that their physical presence means so much to us?

This reminds me of the book "Tuesday with morries" by albom mitch. Which i read, i cried, i empathise and i understand. or at least i think so.

2006-11-16T23:01:00.000+08:00

oh.. blogger has merged with google. interesting.

I am going through what most people in SMU are going through now, exams, projects, stress, etc.. sighs..

actually my projects are more or less done, the last presentation was on tuesday. It was the Intellectual Property Rights class, where we presented the law case to our most "beloved" prof and the singappore ex-chief Justice Yung Pung How. It was a great honor to have the presence of the ex chief justice but i must say that we were ALL VERY nervous. Fortunately i think we all did okie. that's what i think la. For an 80 something year old man, he is extremely alert and talkative. Dont all of us wish we could be like him?

Placed some high expectations on my projects. and one of the projects were part of a competition. I put in so much effort into making it a success, but i am wondering now whether it is actually good enough to beat the rest and win the competition. sighs.sighs sighs.

And we formed a team to take part in Loreal Brandstorm competition which we are extremely determined to win.. YAY!

I really need a holiday this december but somehow i got this bad feeling that i will not be able to enjoy myself. I really want to go to the beach, enjoy the sea and sun. and chill. can i.

2006-11-02T09:16:00.000+08:00

this place is getting lonely.

just a lil update. work is never ending and it will not end until end of november. School's my second home. i hardly see my family nowadays. Sad. but at least josh's with me in school. haha. i miss my frens and i miss going out.

i wonder why do we put ourselves and our work to the discretion of other people's judgement? can they really "measure" us? are we really the "A" grade person or the "C" grade person they make us out to be?

2006-10-08T15:58:00.000+08:00

Mid autumn gathering.
okie.. i had so much fun at my mid-autumn gathering...

go see the pictures at
http://pleaidestars.multiply.com/photos.

Tick tick.. boom
Went to watch Tick Tick boom last night. (http://www.ticktickboomthemusical.com/). the singing was good. It was nothing fantastic but i would say that it was decently good.

2006-10-01T17:19:00.000+08:00

Spend Thrift Yanni. What a good way to describe me.

Hello.. Finally finished my Adidas show on thursday! Happy..Met really exciting people but time is badly spent on waiting and waiting for shows and rehearsals to begin.. I never felt so wasted then. Now back to school and settling into school life again!

It has only been 4 days since the last day of show and when i have finally have time to go shopping!, I have already spent close to 200 on clothes and bags!! Sighs.. i feel very guilty for spending so much when the money could have been better spent. SIghs.. SALES are evil..
I feel so broke. argh..

So, what did i spent on?

1. A top that cost $10. Bought it near the marketplace at tampines central ( yes!A store near the smelly market that sell fish and meat). Colourful and cool!! Too cheap to resist!

2. A sling bag from Warehouse (Marina Sq). This bag cost $73. 20% discount = $58.40, and i have $50 voucher from Josh! So i spend only $8.40 on the bag.. Tks to dear josh! Oh yeah and tks to jeffrey for helping me choose it!

3. Two Brassieres from Women's Secret at Marina Square at $54 ( for both). there is 20% off too.. and i bought 2.. Nice right? i like the flower-printed one. Incidentally, Women's Secret is just in front of warehouse.

4. A (fake) LeSportSac bag. from China($35). Interestingly, the tag inside says "Carefully made in USA". For a fake branded good, it is of pretty good quality. Tks Janice. The print is gorgeous (the bag is called Large Tribecca Tote, in Childhood Nostalgia) Anyways, this bag was ordered from her ages ago. it just happened to arrive this morning!

5. An Adidas watch, retailing (Only in tampines and Ck tang for now) at $93, on offer at $83. but my mom and sister helped me to bargain down to $80. I think it is a damn cool watch! though it cannot go with nice femine clothes but i like it anyways with my tshirt and jeans!

I am so so broke now. maybe you should extend some help to me in my daily survival.

Beside the above that i have spend on, i have also gotten some free gifts from Adidas during the show..

Check it out.

1. Jacket. Purple and glam! I am a sucker for jackets. Up to this point in time, i think i have more them 10 jackets, Haha! but i am lovin' it.

2. A cool and funky jacket that has slanted ziplines and hood.. i cannot describe how it looks like. Show to you next time.

3. An Adidas trackpants.

4. A pair of Adicolor Sneakers. haha.. it is not the most comforable pair of shoes but it is damn good to have. The best thing about it is that i can change the colour of the stripes on the shoes with the plastic stripe pieces that comes with it. stripes come in various colours such as green, yellow, black, red etc

hhaa.. Okie thats the end. i must say i am really very lucky! =).

2006-09-24T01:35:00.000+08:00

hey. It's me again. well. it can only be me here and no one else.

i am happy lately. school's been busy, more work will come up in samba, neglecting family, sleeping late .. but i am happy. I am not exhilarated but i am just happy. i am not overjoyed, but i am just happy.

Got an adidas job for 3 days in a row, gonna miss so many classes that i can kick myself for it, but i am still happy that i got the job.

Gonna miss him this week. but i am still happy. Mid Autumn is nearing, the usual gang of us can go out again. You know who you are. Happy.

haha. Study hard. Happy.

2006-09-16T12:12:00.000+08:00

Yes! arts feste is Finally over.. i am offically a normal smu student. no more rehearsal and no more putting up to the face of the instructor. i think he really dislike us.

But our own percussion instructor is good.. his name is Wan.. and he rocks. Younger then me, he is studying for a degree in hand drums.. i never knew there was a degree for handrums. anyways he rock the stage for the percussionist last night. he is good!!

some pics...

the 6 of us who played for arts feste.

Wan and ME!

2006-09-14T15:21:00.000+08:00

Finally it is just one more day to end of arts feste. It is taking up so much time.

3 more weeks and it is the mid-autumn festival again. yay.. time to hang out with the gang again. i miss them so much lo, esp lishi lar!! Guys!, where shall we go this year? bedok reservior or just hang out at someone's place. It is o 6th of october, TGIF day. YAY!! i love mid-autumn when i can carry laterns, eat nice mooncakes and pomelo.

I am so broke recently. i need money! haha!

Some pics from previous gigs!

The sexy hot samba girls!

Sauza Tequila.. that made many drunk and high

It is alot of fun doing this.

At Mos Burger.. oooooohhh..

2006-09-05T23:39:00.000+08:00

by next friday 17th sept i should be freed from smu arts feste. though the songs are nice and i enjoy playing them, i still feel like i am the worst drummer in the world. sighs.. very very sad.

class has been tired but mostly interesting. i like the classes called "strategic brand management", "Intellectual property rights" and "Persuasion". Workload has been really heavy but overal challenging.

Some things are happening to me and my life. But sometime i just wonder whether this feeling will last. Maybe i am too used to being by myself that i dunno if i can ever bear to leave this behind. Sighs. Maybe someone can tell me what to do.

Just cleaned my table. Neat and tidy for now. i m always looking forward to seeing a it speckless. =P.

2006-09-01T01:36:00.000+08:00

sighs..
Sorry guys. Been out of action for such a long long time..

so many things happened recently. school, samba and meeting new people and coping with MUCH MUCH more work then ever. OH i been to womad with josh too. too bad it was the last day, but it was fun

I am so busy that i cant even find more then 3 hours to meet up with my usual bunch of frens, that definitely include jeff.. he has been complaining..

there are so many things that i wanna talk about but i just cannot get them organised. Maybe i will blog another day with bits and pieces of information..

okie back to clearing email. One of the shitiest job in the world.

2006-08-18T01:31:00.000+08:00

busy busy busy with Convocation..sighs.. mommy nt happy that i am out so often.. aiya. i feel like an 18 year old.

school is starting in a week's time. i got a feeling something different is going to happen this semester. hopefully it is good. the bad thing abt my stupid intuition is that it cannot distinguish good and bad things that are gonnna happen.. it just know that SOMEthing is gonna be different.. I hope my studies can turn for better. Muaahaha

Somethings are happening to me now but i think it is too fast. i just need to slow down so that i can see it more clearly.

2006-08-12T01:07:00.000+08:00

i do feel kind not-so-useful... Dunno why. most of hte things i do, are never used/recommend.. sighs.. no one listens to me.. i do know that these shits happens, but i reallu do feel very affected that i was never of much help.

Suddenly feel like star gazing.. who wants to star gaze with me? Aww.. so romantic!

2006-08-11T00:55:00.000+08:00

developing a cockroach phobia. Shitz

2006-08-09T16:55:00.000+08:00

What's your characteristics ?
Birthdays: (Look below for your characteristics) ~ Mine is CAT

January 01 - 09 ~ Dog January 10 - 24 ~ Mouse January 25 - 31 ~ Lion	February 01 - 05 ~ Cat February 06 - 14 ~ Dove February 15 - 21 ~ Turtle February 22 - 28 ~ Panther	March 01 - 12 ~ Monkey March 13 - 15 ~ Lion March 16 - 23 ~ Mouse March 24 - 31 ~ Cat
April 01 - 03 ~ Dog April 04 - 14 ~ Panther April 15 - 26 ~ Mouse April 27 - 30 ~ Turtle	May 01 - 13 ~ Monkey May 14 - 21 ~ Dove May 22 - 31 ~ Lion	June 01 - 03 ~ Mouse June 04 - 14 ~ Turtle June 15 - 20 ~ Dog June 21 - 24 ~ Monkey June 25 - 30 ~ Cat
July 01 - 09 ~ Mouse July 10 - 15 ~ Dog July 16 - 26 ~ Dove July 27 - 31 ~ Cat	August 01 - 15 ~ Monkey August 16 - 25 ~ Mouse August 26 - 31 ~ Turtle	September 01 - 14 ~ Dove September 15 - 27 ~ Cat September 28 - 30 ~ Dog
October 01 - 15 ~ Monkey October 16 - 27 ~ Turtle October 28 - 31 ~ Panther	November 01 - 16 ~ Lion November 17 - 30 ~ Cat	December 01 - 16 ~ Dog December 17 - 25 ~ Monkey December 26 - 31 ~ Dove

If you are a Dog: A very loyal and sweet person.Your loyalty can never be doubted. You are quite honest and sincere when it comes to your attitude towards working. You are a very simple person, indeed. Absolutely hassle free, humble and down-to-earth!! That explains the reason why your friends cling on to you! You have a good taste for clothes. If your wardrobe is not updated with what is trendy, you sure are depressed. Popular and easy-going. You have a little group of dignified friends,all of them being quality-personified.

If you are a Mouse: Always up to some sort of a mischief! The mischievous gleam in your eyes is what makes you so cute and attractive to everyone. You are an extremely fun-to-be-with kind of person. No wonder, people seek for your company and look forward to include you for all get-togethers. However, you are sensitive, which is a drawback. People need to select their words while talking to you. If someone tries to fiddle around and play with words while dealing with you, it is enough to invite your wrath. God bless the person then!

If you are a Lion: Quite contradictory to your name, you are a peace loving person. You best try to avoid a situation wherein you are required to fight. An outdoor person, you dislike sitting at one place for a long duration. You are a born leader, and have it in you how to tactfully derive work from people. You love being loved, and when you receive your share of limelight from someone, you are all theirs!!!! Well, well... hence some people could even take an advantage, flatter you to the maximum and get their work done. So be careful.....

If you are a Cat: An extremely lovable, adorable person, sometimes shy,with a passion for quick wit. At times, you prefer quietness. You love exploring various things and going into depth of each thing. Under normal circumstances you're cool, when given a reason to, you are like a volcano waiting to erupt. You're a fashion bird. People look forward to you as an icon associated with fashion. Basically, you mingle along freely but don't like talking much to strangers. People feel very easy in your company. You observe care in choosing your friends.

If you are a Turtle: You are near to perfect and nice at heart.The examples of your kindness are always circulated in groups of people.You, too, love peace. You wouldn't like to retaliate even to a person who is in the wrong. You are loved due to this. You do not wish to talk behind one's back. People love the way you always treat them. You can give, give and give love, and the best part is that you do not expect it back in return.You are generous enough.Seeing things in a practical light is what remains the best trait of you guys.

If you are a Dove: You symbolize a very happy-go-lucky approach in life.Whatever the surroundings may be, grim or cheerful, you remain unaffected.In fact, you spread cheer wherever you go. You are the leader of your group of friends and good at consoling people in their times of need. You dislike hypocrisy and tend to shirk away from hypocrites. They can never be in your good books, no matter what. You are very methodical and organized in your work. No amount of mess, hence, can ever encompass you. Beware, it is easy for you to fall in love....

If you are a Panther: You are mysterious. You are someone who can handle pressure with ease, and can handle any atmosphere without going berserk.You can be mean at times, and love to gossip with your selected group.Very prim and proper. You like all situations and things to be in the way you desire, which, sometimes is not possible. As a result, you may lose out in some relationships. But otherwise, you love to help people out from difficult and tight spots when they really need you.

If you are a Monkey: Very impatient and hyper!!! You want things to be done as quick as possible. At heart, you are quite simple and love if you are the center of attraction. That way, you people are unique. You would like to keep yourself safe from all the angles. Shall your name be dragged or featured in any sort of a controversy, you then go all panicky. Therefore, you take your precautions from the very beginning. When you foresee anything wrong, your sixth sense is what saves you from falling in traps. Quite a money minded bunch you people are!!

Cockroach Episode

2006-08-08T12:27:00.000+08:00

I was sitting in the living room, on the sofa talking on the fone when a Bloody, HUGE, Black, Fat, With wings, with legs and all - cockroach (refer to size) flew right to the centre of the living room. (refer to map). I am pretty sure you know my immediate reaction, i screamed, way too loud for the volume at 1230 am.. i screamed with all my might (i couldnt do anything else) and poor zhiwei, he was on the fone listening to all my screaming....

my sister came out of the study room. She flipped when she saw the cockroach, and keep whispering and beckoning to me to come into the room ( it was a whisper compared to my screaming). I felt so stranded at my sofa but i am dying to escape. I jump to my right, Leaped over the sofa, kept to the wall, and past my parents room... they were already at their door by then, wondering what the hell i was screaming about. ..and dashed straight into the bedroom....

After rummaging throught the sofas and bags, they could not find it in the living room. ( my dad even resorted to using the vacumm cleaner to Suck the cockroach, i bet his vision is still blurry from the sleep.).. and i was ordered by my mom to turn on my fone and lappy. So, the shivering, scared me decided to brave into the living to switch off everthing. 5 steps into the living room, once again, i saw the pest on the wall... i sreamed and ran back into the room.. me and my sisters huddled in the bedroom... Haha..

finally the cockroach was gone, smacked to death, bundled in tissue or sucked into the vacuum cleaner, i could not be bothered to know. it took me more then half and hour to get back to sleep, but not after me and my sisters laughed it out for all the funny actions and expressions of me and my parents. my mom even came and touched me, telling me that she was also shivering from all my screaming..

2006-08-07T00:32:00.000+08:00

Been so busy these days, with nothing but samba and samba and more samba. Sighs.. i want a holiday. OKie jeffrey, dun bring up the past again!...

Anyway jeffrey had said i am a very blunt and tactless person.But this kinda stuff, i wont know unless someone tells me.. so.. the next time if i am blunt, tell me.. so that i can be a better person.

well... I am a very violent person.bringing lotsa bruises, knocks and punches to my frens.. Sighs..Stop me! I am addicted. OKie zhiwei, i know u are the main victim..

But i wont mind being them if i have to be violent.. hehe!

When will days of happiness come by for me?

How confident are you?

2006-08-05T00:17:00.000+08:00

How confident are you?

Do u find yourself asking that question?

For me, i started of being humble. then i started to become unsure.. and finally i became totally uncertain.

Everything to me now, seems impossible. I have no more courage and drive. Whatever i do now comes with a question mark. "Can i do that? what if i cant? OKie.. i think i cant." and it usually ends off with that, me totally steering away from things i want to do or excel in. Because i know i never will.

As a result, there is nothing i can ever excel in. It is like what my pri school teacher has said "If Yanni understands, i think the whole class will understand". Supporting this with evidence, If I can dance, everyone can dance. But never the other way round. I am always putting myself beneath others, it is become a form degradation. A pessimist character does not help either.

I think this is the worst thing that u can label yourself with.

sighs. What is life without confidence?

... i feel stupid...

a pic of cat to make me happier..

Cats in the Sun

2006-07-27T14:55:00.000+08:00

a few weeks back, i borrowed this really thick picture book from the national library.. it is called "Cats in the Sun", By Han Silvester. He must be called silvester for a reason! =)

anway, this book is really good. it is the end results of Hans Silvester 3 year stay at the greek cycladic islands photographing cats. all in daytime.. Every picture was well taken. and i really enjoyed the book so much that i wanna buy this book.but it is not cheap. around 50plus bucks. =(. Why are books so expensive. we should all buy more books so that they will become cheaper!

Will post some pics of the cats on my multiply website soon! =)

2006-07-27T14:38:00.000+08:00

Been sleeping really late and waking up really late! Sighs!. and my mom would nag at my absence everyday! Cant be helped. Samba is SO busy. Normal pract, Convo and upcoming arts fest, i think i will be in school almost everyday!

I feel so detached from the outside world. always "basking" in past memories and wishing that time will not pass so fast without me realising it. i really wanna find some way to preserve my youth.

Some of my frens are not too well recently, particulary one. Hope he can be strong and overcome his health problems as soon as possible.

School is starting soon. besides school work and samba, i am also TA-ing ( teaching assistant) a marketing prof. I really want to be of some help to some people and really excel is this semester! i canno afford to slack anymore. i really cant.

I need to read more books! anyone has good books to recommend?

2006-07-23T01:21:00.000+08:00

He seems happy over there. And i really hope he is really happy. But i kinda miss him. Sighs. Though it doesnt really matter that he doesnt think of me. I am pretty over it, i think.

And, i forget about his birthday. Sorry. and belated happy birthday!

2006-07-23T01:11:00.000+08:00

Some pictures of Samba Masala at the gig at Singtel Trade show! I love my band and hopefully, i can keep on playing for a long time to come.

Some of the girls~!

Partial Gang including all those present~!

2006-07-21T01:08:00.000+08:00

i realise that my colleague used to have no ill-feelings against me and that she was complimenting me when i just joined.. but when we went into 5 weeks later, everyting change and i know for sure that i leave no good impression on her now. it is really sad that i actually made a person who liked me changed to someone who disliked me.. Somehow i wish it hasnt happened. even talking about it made me feel bad.

2006-07-17T01:24:00.000+08:00

recently realise that I am too dependent on confiding in one person. But i know that i should not too reliant on this person. But somehow i cannot help it, even though i know Nothing will come out of it. Maybe i really just need to find some one else to confide in.

2006-07-14T22:16:00.000+08:00

Finally got my blog started up once more. Today is that last day of my 5 weeks internship at my advertising agency.. I thought i would really enjoy working there 5 weeks ago but somehow i didnt. This is extremely contradictory because most of the people there are Very nice and all of them are cat lovers, so we have a common interest. But somehow i realise working with perfectionists(one of my colleague) is really very hard because I am an extremely laid back person and i cannot conform to rules very well.

Some incidents that i faced.
- We had different ways of working and during times when i didnt do it the way this person would have done, I would have tried to follow this person's way of doing it. and it is quite daunting
- fierce persona. makes it hard for me to approach this person.
- Sometimes dealing with this person is enough to fill me for the entire day, without really trying to figure how things work in my company and thus i still dunno 100% of what is going on in the daily operations.
- Difficulties in communication. We seem to be on different wave lengths and somehow i cannot understand this person, no matter how hard i tried. And this person also cannot understand me. because when he/she realsie that i am not "getting" her idea, he/she will try to explain to me in the idiot-proof and i mean really "idiot-proof". i felt like an idiot, really. There could be other ways of explaining to me then treating me as an idiot right?.

But most of the time(Except for today, the last day. I kept quiet but i was blowing up inside), i would think it is my fault and try to anticipate her way of thinking but it doesnt really work out all the time. Or maybe people have high expectations of me and if i cannot perform up to expectations, i will really piss them off and myself too.

Another thing i hate about myself is, i allowed myself to be easily flustered and having a really bad memory.. The tall big strappy me is actually very easily scared. If my boss is fierce, i might just be as quiet as a mouse.. and things they have said before, they have to repeat one more time for me to recall. But memory can be trained. the former point is permanent i think. sighs.

But all that aside, i think she is one of the most witty and capable women i ever seen. And still, i hold her in high regards.

WHen i first joined the company,i thought i would leave happily. I did leave feeling relieved but not happy because i chose to give up my internship before it reaches the designated date. I can give all kinds of reasons i want, the work dont suit me, there are people i cannot get along with, i got a poor understanding of the person/work. etc etc..BUT the fact is. i have given up on my own accord.

And i really hate that feeling.

2006-06-29T23:55:00.000+08:00

the Songs that i used to listen with heavy heart no longer has any effect on me, the cause of the problems has been solved. and i think i had finally put it down. thankfully

2006-06-25T23:51:00.000+08:00

25 June 2006. 1115pm. My aunt and her husband arrived at out place after leaving granny;s place in ipoh ( refer to the previous 2 entries). they brought with them loads of durians and managosteen, the King and Queen of fruits. And they are still WARM! haha! they tasted so great that i cant help it but decided to blog about it! okie lar. just to show some pics to express my excitement ( my dad was more excited then me). anyway.i had a great day with my parents and sisters. it was a fun day and i had some good shopping done!YEAH!!

Mangosteen

Durians.. they are in boxes. not opened yet. but. judging by the relative size of my fingers. it is prettt much alot. haha! okie. i dunno why i am getting so excited over some durians.

2006-06-21T10:53:00.000+08:00

My wishlist ( V V V V V V V Current)

1. A facial to correct my face
2. the Fred Perry bag i saw at Far East Plaza

3. A cat.. yes.. the animal. I Love CATS!

4. a new wallet. my current one now is pathetic!

5. A cap from abercrombie & Fitch ( i really like it!)

2006-06-19T15:09:00.000+08:00

i read this article by Peter Singer on The Straits Times on 17 June 2006 and thought that it is very intriguing.. Give it a read and some food for thought

The Ethics of Eating
Peter Singer is Professor of Bioethics at Princeton University. His books include Writings on an Ethical Life and One World. His most recent book, co-authored with Jim Mason, is The Way We Eat: Why Our Food Choices Matter. His last piece on Webdiary was The Great Ape Debate
by Peter Singer

Global meat consumption is predicted to double by 2020. Yet in Europe and North America, there is growing concern about the ethics of the way meat and eggs are produced. The consumption of veal has fallen sharply since it became widely known that to produce so-called “white” – actually pale pink – veal, newborn calves are separated from their mothers, deliberately made anemic, denied roughage, and kept in stalls so narrow that they cannot walk or turn around.

In Europe, mad cow disease shocked many people, not only because it shattered beef’s image as a safe and healthy food, but also because they learned that the disease was caused by feeding cattle the brains and nerve tissue of sheep. People who naively believed that cows ate grass discovered that beef cattle in feed lots may be fed anything from corn to fish meal, chicken litter (complete with chicken droppings), and slaughterhouse waste.........

To continue reading, pls go to http://webdiary.com.au/cms/?q=node/1518. I dun wanna kenna any copright issues

Copyright: Project Syndicate, 2006.www.project-syndicate.org

Ipoh Trip

2006-06-17T17:14:00.000+08:00

My yearly event during the june holidays would be to go back to Ipoh to visit my granny, aunts and uncles, and of cuz my lovely cousins. sighs.. it was a very short trip as i have to rush back to singapore for gigs, and my sisters have to come back for their own stuff.. i hope that the next time we go back, it would be a longer and more comfortable trip! i couldnt sleep well at night.

anyway.. the we-all-love-pictures moment is here

The small winding roads in the kampung village. and it looks like rain. 930am in the morning.

This is how a pineapple and brinjal plant looks like.

My granny's house. Double storey with a extension for kitchen ( u should be glad i didnt show u how the toilet looks like) and chicken yard

The chickens are gone and i dont know why!

Not in time for rambutan season. there aint durians too

Some of my cousins!

my sister and cousin.. do u love the mountains in the background?

haha!! my cousin with the chopper separating the sugar cane!

i had a go at it too.. in fact, i cut everything including the skin~ It was the day when i nearly lose my fingers! it was very juicy, not recommended for people with weak teeth!

I love the sunset there, warm and nice.. and Doraemon comics under the setting sun!!~ how i enjoy life!

Another beautiful sunset on the way to dinner!

The popular Penang laksa. the best i ever had in my life. Def-must-eat kind.

i swear all the food is GOOD!

my play ground when i was a kid.

Many other pictures at http://pleaidestars.multiply.com

2006-05-24T13:41:00.000+08:00

FINALLY, after a year long of intensive studying, with bad and good grades, i am finally taking a break (it rhymes). Ever since last year July,i have been studying NON-STOP for a year. with only a dec break but much went to playing samba. Even now, i am not totally free, as i still have a Capitaland marketing competition to go thru (hoping we can win!so that we can go to china!), with group members Cixian and Jenny.

okie.. so now i have been staying at home for 2 days, except going out to samba at night. i realise my mom's favourite past time is paying SUDOKU at home. and she just complained to me about the especially tough one which she had rubbed with the eraser until the paper broke (she is using pencil and paper). i have to type the whole thing out and print it for her.

because me and my sisters are still growing, there is a need to buy more clothes and thus the number of our clothes are increasing, therefore we need to clear out more space in the cupboard. and so.. some softtoys have to. What we learn about sampling in marketing research is, "the only perfectly accurate sample is a census". A census is defined as an accounting of the complete population. Thus, i will now proceed to conduct a census on my soft toys

This is the population of MY soft-toys.

The girly one at the left is called Milk Girl, she is a emigrant from Taiwan, was popular there for a period of time, cuz she makes tasty bubble milk tea, hence the name. Oh yeas, she can talk, if she has battteries. The bear on the left is apparantly very cold, i wonder why he can stay in singapore for so long. And next we have the bear in a bridal gown, she was born because of me. i have to go to this commissioning ball to get her. Then we have the fat pig and the white furry dog. The dog was never huggable (because of the weird shape and size) but i love it anyway, it was my favourite.
The green odd-looking dino was won during at a games stall, i still remember kian seng won it for me (The man who say he will marry me if i dun get married by 30, i think he has all to worry now). and finally the newest addition, Blossom from powerpuff girls. She has biggest eyes any of the other toys has, in fact, there is a doll that is the size of her eye.

And the next bigger bulk of population would be the my sisters.

There are so many of them and i cannot possibly account for all of them. A summary of them will be provided at the end of this census. But let me introduce some to you..

First we have the hello kitty from Macdonald ( the cuter one): i am not a big fan of kitties ( except for real ones), this one really caught my attention, i think probably she is of a different color that's why.. awww!

Next up: The classic tigers from the petrol station called Tigers or what? They are damn classic can!!!.. even if u dun drive, i am sure u have these puppettery toys, or at least own one of their tails? ( remember those tails on key chains)

A few random selections:

Lastly: a few unknowns creatures that entered the population:
Unknown creature 1: duh.. a lil monsters that suck on milk bottles? haha! quite unlikely

Unknown creature 2: i would like to label him as a duck.. but given the weird body it has.. hmmmm

Unknown 3: is it an animated french fry OR a piece of vegetable.?

OKie.. now for the Finally summary:

Total popoulation: 39

breakdown by demographics:
2 girls (??)
1 dinosaur
18 bears
3 tigers
1 lion
1 bee
1 dwarf
2 pikachu
1 duck
1 mouse
1 kolar bear
2 cows
1 elephant
1 chicken
2 cats
1 woodstock (what animal is he/she?)
2 pigs
3 unknowns

Okie.. tired. >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>Yanni

2006-05-21T20:38:00.000+08:00

today is the last day of hell studying before i break for holidays, well others are 1 month well into the holidays. sighs.. i am really tired..

sadd-ed Yanni..

2006-05-20T23:42:00.000+08:00

been really busy.. summer class is coming to an end. finally. and everyting is submitted except for one last test on monday and i will be a free girl after this..

Samba has been busy but really rewarding, i am helping out with the samba logo and misc stuff. I get so easily excited over samba... haha. but at least it is something that will make me happier..
well.. speaking of excitement.. i realise my second sis has been weird recently.. is it because she stay at hall for too long and now that she is bad, life now seems abit different.. well. i tried to talk to her, afterall she is my sister. But i have TOTALLY no idea why she seems nonchalant about me.. if i tried to tell her something really exciting, maybe an uncoming gig or some school stufff, she looks like she cant be bothered and gave me her infamous expressionless face. when she comes home, she doesnt even acknowldege that she is home, i feel transparent. when i asked her questions, she give me one word answer.

When she asked me questions.. er. wait. she doesnt even ask me abt stuffs.. basically she is not talking to me and is forever giving me that dont-talk-to-me face all the time. she just makes me feel like i have just been snubbed by her. she usually voice out her displeasure when i did something that she perceive as wrong.. but now she doesnt even talk!!

When she is desperately looking for missing things and she is asking the whole world to find it for her and no one manage to, she gets upset. but when i managed to find it for her, she just take it away and not a word of thanks, not even when i told her that she is supposed to say thanks as a courtesy. I am very disappointed in her.

2006-05-13T23:58:00.000+08:00

okie.. i dreamt of HIM last night.. suddenly realise i miss him more all the more. hmmm it saddens me that i had to mention him once today. i dunno how long more this will take. not that it is heart wrenching, but it is just saddening. i miss the midnight chats and suppers. =~( .There are so many things to say to him but i dun think i get the chance to do it

Anyway, my fren britmand left for US for work and travel. This is the second time he is going, i am plain jealous of him cuz he gets to travel for 3 months. but seriously i dun think i could have sacrifice that kind of time.

Nicholas, Robin and britmand

my best girl

2006-05-08T01:06:00.000+08:00

i badly need a holiday, everytime i see those 2 postcards in front of me, showing that swaying coconut trees, beautiful swimming pool, sunset sky or sunrise.

Which one is worse?
the postcard display the place that u have been to OR
the postcard display the place that you have not been too but looks damn inviting?

argh!

and on top of it, i am still thinking of that person...

2006-05-01T15:17:00.000+08:00

i dreamt of a good fren meeting with damn jialat misfortune 2 nights ago.. i shall not explain in details. scary. but gladfully, i had a better dream last night.

2006-04-29T12:41:00.000+08:00

nightmares. about exams. 2 night consecutive. sick

2006-04-28T23:58:00.000+08:00

i just got back some nice pics from getty images.. taken with tennant... happy viewing..
but.. bad news today. i screwed up my exam paper and my total grade Am i going to graduate with bad grades? i got only 1.5 years to make up for it. Do u think i can make it? i am pretty darn upset! sighs.. why can't i just do well?

i really like this one

This is damn naughty. made the photographer luff

Happy family. muahhaa

Candid pictures are always good! =)

summer classes!

2006-04-21T16:56:00.000+08:00

Next week my summer class will start! this module is called Marketing Research, 4 weeks of classes - on Mon, Wed and fri. i have to complete a project and 2 quizzes. ( i managed to SIAM the exam.lucky lucky) Tuesday and thursday will be reserved for samba! Meaning i will have to go back to school EVERYDAY. sigh. I dun have close frens taking this module with me. but still anyways, i will still aim for an A. haha..

Sometimes i really hate SMU. it is already so expensive paying through our noses for the school fees, moving to the new campus is bad too. School food isnt exactly cheap even though it is the bloody school foodcourt. The Kopitiam is making big bucks out of us and the tenants. result: i am becoming fat. sighs.. And the professors, they are also doing the same thing. every single semester, they changed a new book for the module they are teaching. this book for my summer is the freaking latest edition (2005, NOV), "hot" from publisher and it blardly hell cost 48.90. or is it 49.8? wateva it is. I am broke. it cost a freaking 85bucks on amazon.com for a used one. Plus i cannot resell this book because no other professors are using it next semester.

Marketing Research with SPSS 13.0 Student Version for Windows (5th Edition) (Hardcover)

okie.. Sigh. i am enjoying every single bit of staying at home. rain looks nicer when i am at home!

2006-04-20T23:57:00.000+08:00

the book i am reading now. really sad and inspiring. greatly recommended..

Watched Art of Seduction. Damn funny. u appreciate being a woman after this show, cuz u can con all the men in the world!~ okie.. not all.. just the stupid ones!! the guy in the show is cute beyond words

2006-04-18T00:54:00.000+08:00

FINALLY after 2 weeks of suffering. using all the strength i have left after the last paper, i am writing the blog to formally inform the WHOLE world that i formally finishes my exams for this semsters.. Though i really think i didnt do well. hope it is not too bad. i am not really aiming for an A though. i want to cry..!! i am dreading the day when the results are out. next week i will be doing summer studies with some smnu frens.. Marketing Research Dun sound fun. but no choice!! it is a core!

I think by the time i graduate from SMU, i probably would be one of the lousiest student they ever had.. i am not really looking forward to work.. Good news!! i know what major i wanna take!. Corporate communcations and marketing..i want to do PR when i start working!! +p ..

I have a list of around 30 major and mini task to do for the beginning of summer!! haha! and that includes going on holiday and exercising. haha!!

2006-03-29T23:33:00.000+08:00

heyloo.. tmr is the last day of my 4 presentations. Finally.. !~ hope prof bhooma will like it. alot of effort was put into it. i saw the online news that there is a solar eclipe today, 29 march 06' in areas like Turkey, Rome, Libya, Mongolia, Syria. The best place to view it would be turkey. It was so gorgeous!! but too bad we cant see it from the equator. I remember the last time i watched in some years back but it was only a lunar eclipse in the middle of the night. wanted to watch with frens, but it was almost impossible since i was still young and probably wont be granted permission. Solar eclipse is pretty rare. i read the article and it makes me feel so eager to watch one. They say that the whole place would turn blue green when the whole sun is being blocked, the sky would turn blue and stars would start appearing. FOr the whole 3 mins, the day has turned into night. Man!. i wish i was there to experience the feeling. I WANT TO TRAVEL!!!

Can i watch an aurora borealis before i die?

2006-03-28T14:24:00.000+08:00

recently been listening to alot of songs. maybe because i have my ipod nano liao. it is really good. kills boredom most of the time. and i have many new favourite songs. Try Jheena Lodwick - Do that to me one more time. it is good i tell u. just ask me for the song i will send u.

23 years old already. cant help but say that time flies. SIghs.. it is amazing really. u recall the times when u are young, childishly playing around, trying to study hard. U can even remember how young your mother and father looks like. and now u see those facial lines and white hairs they have now. and how time is is mercilessly rushing ahead of you all the time. when you are younger, you can only picture yourself being the young, pretty adult in early twenties. but now, i think of how i will look like and where i will be when i am 30. it is freaky how our mindset changes with time and it is not by choice.

Being 23 means i am older then i was last year. My dad, every year will give me a speech, reminding me that, being older, i have to be wiser and i have to stop being my kiddy self.. i just nod and nod and nod. but do we really get that into our heads? sometimes, we have to appreciate our loved ones around us. if we dont cherish them or listen to them or appreciate their presence, we can only have ourselves to blame when they are not around next time. I am always thinking how sad and scary it would be if they are not around but yet we do not value the present all the time. Only after sometime ( just like now), we start to think and realign our thinking. but it is either too late or it will only persist only for a while.

I always wanted to study in a university. but now that i am in SMU, i think my grades are pretty sucky. not up to standard. and it is already year 2. i still have 1.5 more years to go. this 1.5 years will be crucial to me. i need to maintain my GPA. studying may not be everthing, but i dun wanna waste my time. i could have been working to support my mom, but here i am spending more money then earning. she had a hard life. and i really want to see her enjoy life abit more and i want to see her happy. well. i am glad that my sister i graduating in a few months, just that she hasn't got a job. hopefully she will soon.

Talking about my sister. i think we are drifting apart. partly because she is always in hostel, plus she dun come back that often and on top of that, i always come back late from school. i rem when we are young, we talk about more things and share more stuff..but now, it is amazing if we managed to talk more then 10 sentences. probably 8 are by me. oh wells...

okie..i should stop writing and get back to report writing. This summer vacation, i should be something really constructive. i want to learn how to use adobe Photoshop, continue my guitar ( a gift from my dad, he always say i am not patient in learning this, well i think as i grow older, my learning curve is slower and flatter. i wish i had learnt the piano when i was young. but somethings are just meant to be or not meant to be), lastly, i want to play more samba and drums. i am in love with it. I wish i have the talent and everlasting passion like Jerry. but more often then more, i am always thinking that i am very lousy. Is it true that the more u think u can do it, u can do it? for me, this is still on trial.

2006-03-28T14:00:00.000+08:00

i am starting to regret the fact that i dun study harder in Year 1.. i am so gonna regret it i know.. I dunno how to make up for it man.. can someone advise?

My birthday was good.. SPecial thanks goes to my favourite Samba Masala. THey bought a cake for me and 9 of them sang birthday song to me.. i am SO SO touched.. really. THen lishi bought cheesecakes for me.. especially the one from Hilton. I am so glad she is my best fren. Benny "made" a cake for me too.. cannot eat it cuz it is made of wire..alot of effort went into it.. and i am moved by his effort. and to many others, Alex, Shaun, Cixian, Jenny, Ngaip.. Thank you my frens, it has been a great birthday for me! =)Missing someone who doesnt care...

2006-03-28T00:11:00.000+08:00

forgot to put this.. she is my band leader!! =)

2006-03-28T00:10:00.001+08:00

lishi bought this especially for ME!! muacks!!

2006-03-28T00:10:00.000+08:00

benny made this for me! So schweeet!

2006-03-28T00:09:00.000+08:00

basking in bliss

2006-03-28T00:02:00.000+08:00

me and robin

2006-03-27T23:59:00.000+08:00

Yea.. my best fren!!!

2006-03-27T23:58:00.000+08:00

Happy belated birthday ROBIN!!

2006-03-27T23:24:00.002+08:00

Me and May May!!!! so pretty

2006-03-27T23:24:00.001+08:00

tks samba babies!! "Touching" level 200%

2006-03-27T23:24:00.000+08:00

from Alexis.. bought from US! Tks baby!

2006-03-18T03:13:00.000+08:00

I am so stressed. so STRESSED> so STRESSED> so STRESSED> so STRESSED> so STRESSED> so STRESSED> so STRESSED> ..i have NO time to blog. This semester i DIE> i DIE> i DIE> i DIE> i DIE> i DIE> i DIE> .. i hate this SEMSTERS> i hate BUSINESS PROCESS.. This semester sian...

WHAT CAN I DO???? I have to MUG!!!!
is this the largest the words can go? wtf

2006-02-14T23:46:00.000+08:00

This week is so stressed. four tests in a week. i think i have having problems with my memory. It just doesnt work and i cannot rem whateva i read.. and i did badly for my tests. i really hate myself for that.. why cant i just be as good as Xian or Shaun or ralf? i really dun expect too much. but just to do reasonably well. but i screwed up 2 tests alr, one of which i know the grades alr and i was below average. i take it too hard and reflect the grades on me personally. I feel so inadequate. is there something wrong with me? Maybe i shouldnt be in SMU. i really dun feel good abt it and in the midst of studying i would think of my grades and cry. 2 more tests to go. i dunno how i can get through after this week and look at my grades. i think i am in store for more lousy grades. I cannot take it already..

Wish i can still talk to him about it, but too bad he is no around now.

2006-02-11T00:34:00.000+08:00

we are talking again. but yeah. thats abt it.

2006-02-07T00:10:00.000+08:00

He left.. without saying goodbye.. without me sending him and he didnt even receive my goodbye msg.. we will remain like this forever, never talking to each other again.. until years later. by then he probably have a happy life, got out of his own mess and carry on with his loved ones.. =(.. we were never good frens.. and he will never remember me..

sighs.... i think i am such a bad sister to her.. i cannot understand her and i think she dun like to talk to me.. i cannot get her respect as my sister... all my fault.. all along.. i dun try to urstd her. sighs..

i hate blogging.

2006-01-27T16:44:00.001+08:00

Saturday will be the day where we all have the reunion dinner. but sunday i wont see my mom and youngest sister. they will be back in ipoh whereas my dad and my second sister will stay in singapore with me.. sighs.. first day of chinese new year would definitely super bored.. i got a feeling that we will be at home watching tv to while away time. all my good frens will be visiting relatives they havent seen in years... sighs..

the second day of cny i will be visiting my dancer frens.. the weird thing is i am not even close to them.. sighs.. wat a way to spend my precious second day.3rd day, i would see my poly frens. haha.. i am amazed, the people i i will see on cny would be those that i dun often see.. but my poly frens are good frens to me. i am actually looking forward to it.finally i am meeting all my best frens only on sunday.. the 8th day of cny.. sighs..Jio me out if u free..i have to stop eating things on my left side..

i think my tooth is breaking down.. *cries* at last some long awaited pics.. dated at least 2 weeks back.. haha..

2006-01-27T16:38:00.000+08:00

some japanese snacks that steven got for me from japan. it is super tasty.. really..

2006-01-27T16:34:00.000+08:00

my new fone ( 3 weeks alr) D500C

2006-01-27T16:31:00.000+08:00

they are huge, i swear

2006-01-27T16:29:00.000+08:00

balloons from alex.. tks..

2006-01-25T15:42:00.000+08:00

today i received the most shocking msg of my lifetime.. i call him A.. apparantly he is my previous "ehem".. people close to me would know who he is.. it has been almost 2 years exactly.

"Heya Yanni,I know this is really overdue and I was kinda debating if I should do this but yes I owe you one. I'm sorry for whatever that has happened. I think most imptly I would like apologize most for the way I handled things. As I look back I do think I could have done much better but instead I screwed it up and I regret it. For all the pain caused, I'm sorry.And don't get me wrong I'm not msging u for any other motives. I just msged with the sole purpose saying my sorries. Its just one of those regrets in my life that I promise to sort out and thats why I'm here:) Okie thats it if u could just leave a reply telling me u received the msg thats all I ask for. Have a gd day:)"

sighs... it was a tough lesson that i learnt from him.. i am glad it is over and done with.. it leaves a permanent scar on me.

2006-01-25T12:18:00.000+08:00

TUESDAY is always such a tiring day... 6 hours of lesson full on, 1.5 hours of kickboxing( yes.. it is EXERCISE) and 3+ hours of samba.. in the end i get home real late. I am grinning right now on a wednesday because it is not a school day.. haa.. but something interesting happend yesterday night. was in the mrt with joycelyn, the samba girl.. =).. we dropped at paya lebar, cuz her parents are gonna drive her home and since we lived pretty near, she decided to give me a lift. but her parents are taking too long to arrive.. and so i "asked" harold for a ride back.. haa!! and he is so nice.. after sending joycelyn back, we decided to go for a drink.. but i realise my wallet is missing. Apparantly i dropped it in station. harold called to get the # of paya lebar mrt station. luckily i managed to get hold of the station control manager and my wallet is with them.. what a close shave.. exaclty a year ago.. i lose my wallet just 2 days before chinese new year, but the kind taxi driver gave it back to me.. i didnt run out of luck this year too ( but not for handphones)... haa! but tks to harold..

2006-01-24T19:02:00.000+08:00

after reading my sister's blog. i realise how i am never close to them. sighs. i never try to understand them. never know more about them, never was their close fren, never protect them, never bother about them and never play my part as my sister to them. i just live in my own world. they share things but i am never involved. i hardly remember or worse, never knew all the happenings that was mentioned. i am not a significant part of them in their lives.... again. i just live in own world.. i share things with frens but never with them, and thus they also never know much abt what has happened in my own world either. i dun blame them. i can blame no one. things like this are meant to happen and i am just out of their lives.. I never will be the person they would look up to..

2006-01-23T22:08:00.000+08:00

TIGI BEDHEAD hair treatment.. extra goody stuff for my hair. haha! nice.. and the stylist at Toni and guy's is damn good at blow-drying hair. and now my hair is as straight as optical fibre. muaahhaha...

What am i gonna do on chinese new year? experience staying in singapore once several eyars back.. it was freakingly bored. i cant shop, only watch movie... remember to jio me out!!!

Time is passing so fast.. week 4 already.. meaning i am almost one third into the semester.. i wish summer vacation takes place faster. i want to go on a holiday. sighs..

Still listening to this song. dedicated to a certain living being. why must the world be this big?

2006-01-23T00:28:00.000+08:00

i just posted this song in my blog. take a listen.i think it is nice. there are lotsa nice ones around. but somehow this song matches my feelings now.

i cannot find a blog counter for my blog, means i wont be able to know how many people visited my blog. do leave a msg if u are here. had my cough for more then 3 weeks. think i can cough myself to death easily..

Time is passing very fast. chinese new year is here. mom and youngest sis is going back to ipoh. leaving me and my second sis and dad here in singapore ( he doesnt wanna go back melaka).. think i will probably sleep my way through on new year's day. somehow, i dun really look forward to the new year. why? is it because i grown up?.. nothing much seems to fascinate me these days...

i still miss granny, i will take a trip back to msia after my exams this semester. maybe u wanna come with me for a cheap holiday. =)..

had a talk with a fren.I think maybe I am the one who doesnt appreciate myself...

2006-01-21T00:04:00.000+08:00

unappreciated... sad. Am i too hard on everyone?

2006-01-19T13:47:00.000+08:00

had a urge to listen to chinese songs this few days. was listening it just now after lunch. dunno why, tears began to swell. .... .... .... .... i can feel a sad sharp pain somewhere in my heart

tmr night is the campus's grand opening. there are gonna be performances and speeches and ceremony. will stay behind to listen to the bands and my lovely samba mates play. my drum instructors are performing too. they are good as usual.

miss my late night suppers and chats.

2006-01-19T00:33:00.000+08:00

why do we only learn to cherish things only when we realise we losing them or After we lost them. Some people we know for the whole life, but we never bother to keep them in mind. Are u guilty of it? i am.

He is leaving soon. Never had a chance to be a good fren to him. okie.. *half an hour later*..i am stucked for half an hour on this part.. i dunno how to continue.. i Just CANNOT find words to describe my feelings now. I really cant. but i just feel like crying. Again. I wish i can turn back the clock.

This phrase suits me perfectly now. "Time lost is time gone forever". how true.

2006-01-08T14:00:00.000+08:00

I am weary of being myself.. i always have to perform to the expectation of others, where happen to me? where am i? who really understand me? who would know the real me? who will really appreciate me for who i am? i dunno know to answer these questions.. i am guilty of judging other people too and setting norms, it is normal but it hides many personalities of oneself.

2006-01-07T23:20:00.000+08:00

hello people. dunno if u are still reading my blog. Thanks to all the people who read my blog.. makes it worthwhile to sit in front of the computer to write abt my stupid, depressing life..but anyway. jsut to update abit..

sch started. this semester dun seem extremely friendly. buu i am still determined to put my best food forward. Time really flies.. 2005 is gone and 2006 is here.. it means we are at the second part of the decade.. if we round of the years, we are actually in 2010. sigh.. well.. it hasnt been exactly a good year.. but much better then 2004..nothing much memorable, maybe an occassional balding session, certain parties, certain nice birthday(s), certain drumming and jamming sessions, certain nice professor, certain people(s) and the week JUST before christmas which was good.. and my grandpa left us.. nothing else i would really remember..

oh.. And i just joined the KICKBOXING class each week.. good exercise right? plus my drumming sessions, and my modern dance classes.. i really want to spend my time wisely instead of hanging around people who make me feel that i am unwanted.

Chinese new year is drawing near. but this year i am really not excited really... I miss my mom's mom ( aka, Grandma) and mom's dad ( grandpa, but he is gone.. sheez.. i miss him all the time).but i guess i dun have a chance to visit grandma in msia this year.. i didnt get to see grandpa for the last time last year.. i wish i can spend more time with my loved ones.. will i ever get to see him again?

okie.. enought tears for the night.. look forward to life and i must never let them down..

2005-12-31T11:45:00.000+08:00

for pictures.. visit http://pleaidestars.multiply.com

2005-12-19T21:04:00.000+08:00

the remains of T11G. School of IT, Temasek Polytechnic.

2005-12-19T20:26:00.000+08:00

sunday night is a strange night, caught up with poly frens, digged into prata at jalan kayu.. sleep at 430am cuz chatted with a fren earlier on.. for 1+ hour. it is a strange feeling, strangely nice chatting with him. well.. it took its toll the next morning. almost couldnt wake up, ended up late for blading with samba people. but wadda.. they were ALL late too..

skating is fun, as usual.. learnt the T brake today.. so proud of myself. but it was really good exercise.

the world is so small.. but many unexpected things happen. people are not what they seem to be and we are not what we think we are. Why are we all confused?

2005-12-18T01:56:00.000+08:00

Alvins bdae celebration today... dinner at hardrock cafe.. the place is so nice. nice food. big plates ( i love), nice checkered table cloth and nice band. today the singer sang live for me, "Vanessa Carlton-A thousand miles". she sang it well. Will post pics soon when alvin gives me pictures. Alex, Terence and the rest were there. Justin is grounded. Again. Why?

Want go hard rock cafe again this xmas eve. buddies, u okie with it?? u know who u are!

First day as redbull sampling girl. Alaina seems like a really nice person even though she is team leader, we had lots to talk about leh. amazing. Got a tan but with ugly lines. cuz the top is ugly.. harold, U have no taste! hhaa..I bought a new dress today.. Happy happy happy! my new christmas outfit. keke.

Today is a good day. check out Donnie yen's pic.dun really wanna republish without his permission. but then again. as if he will tell me.

2005-12-18T01:54:00.001+08:00

Donnie Yen.. Hk actor. i like

2005-12-18T01:54:00.000+08:00

words cannot describe how cool he is!

2005-12-16T16:11:00.000+08:00

sigh.. holidays is really quite boring. but good thing is i can stay home and chill. watch the gore-y "The Descent" yest night. All those blood and broken bones, corspe, dying people... phew.. i managed to survive all these. the characters are not deeply protrayed or else it would have been a real cool show. I hope i can catch King Kong soon.

There is NOTHING really nice at Mango SALE. the exception ones are expensive. sighs. in the end didnt buy anything at all. haa. managed to save $$$. But May, my best fren, had fun shopping.. cuz she managed to buy stuffs. I eyed this Aldo shoes and puma bags. but they are pretty expensive.

Would be going down to SPCA the next few weeks to clean cats cages. hope i can keep one as a pet, preferably a kitten, so that i can watch it grow big. but being the clumsy person, i probably kill them, guess i am better off cleaning their cages and giving them food at spca. Who wants to join me?

2005-12-11T00:30:00.001+08:00

I know it when i suck. and it is so hard trying to imagine that i dun. All i tink abt is how bad and silly i am. Why am i still in this world? I am not contributing at all. i am depressed. The world has no place for me.

2005-12-01T12:10:00.001+08:00

I feel so bad.. getting fat and all... i wanan go swimming. jogging and blading. rem to jio me for blading okie... wednesday night is such a tiring night. went to Thumper. Rent the musical cast were there. and Karen mok too.. haa. She is so short but she is very pretty.

2005-11-30T19:03:00.000+08:00

THIS is Donnie Yen.He is such a fighter! OMG... *screams* On the left is Sammo Hong.

2005-11-29T20:11:00.000+08:00

Yo pals. i am back! haha.. miss me? been so busy with the school work. too lazy to blog.. but anyways.. i am BACK.. the perfect ending to this term is of cuz a nice movie and it has to be SPL, Sha Po Lang. The lead actor is Donnie Yen, aka Zheng Zi Dan. HE IS SO CUTE. i swear i mumbled more then 80 times throughout the whole show that he is so cool. hhaaa. getting a little bit crazt, aint i? haha! anyway, go watch the show guys. it is 4 out of 5 stars for me (it would be full marks if he is in singapore and i get to see him, muahaha)

Short holidays man..times flies.. it is the festive seasons again. and new year is just round the corner. I am gonna be a year older again. Sighs.

Keep posts okie..

2005-11-11T09:11:00.000+08:00

YO everyone. haha.. I am back. didnt blog for a WHOLE month already.. was too busy and tired to blog, or rather there is really nothin going on in my life. sigh. everyday school, doing so many project and getting real bothered by the bidding system...Get home real late, eat late dinner, get fat, sleep and school again. I am getting really fat. And i miss blading man!!

recently jus join SPCA to clean cats cages.haha.. i like cats! my life is bad.. i want to party.

2005-10-16T22:39:00.000+08:00

i met this person sometime back. dunno why this person is such a tough nut to crack.. trying to urstd him/her better.. but cannot be done.. he/she does not open up at all. Or maybe i am just freaking irritating, that's why. always have this heck-care attitude, sometimes it is really annoying. I wish he/she is not like this.. why? but i really wan to urstd this person better. Any ideas?

2005-10-14T01:24:00.001+08:00

Mr tall david

2005-10-14T01:24:00.000+08:00

i like the accessories~

2005-10-14T01:23:00.000+08:00

this are the nicest bunch of pple (do i sound over exaggerating?) who came down to support us! terence justin alex alvin

2005-10-14T01:21:00.000+08:00

me and some of the girls

Thumper First Anniversary!!!

2005-10-14T01:07:00.000+08:00

Yoohoo.. last night was thumper first anniversary.. All T-models were showcased and it was pure fun hanging out with them.. rehearsals started at 5pm and showtime was 1145.. managed to get Terence, Justin, Alvin and alex to come down watch show and support.. Tks dudes! Drank alot man.. but it was free flow.. so heck lar

Went to newton circus to eat ( i really have no idea that it newton.. it simply does not look like what i had seen it before).. justin ordered this starfruit juice for me to relieve my bad headache... man! it really sucks..

took cab with alvin and justin.. the trip back was more like a dream.. i only rem see lotsa of trees and nothing else on the road....Got home, barely clean off all the makeup and bathe (didnt even wash hair) before i jump to bed.. ZZzzzzZzzZZZzZz

2005-10-08T23:30:00.000+08:00

at indochine!

2005-10-08T23:29:00.001+08:00

Mr Vanity and Misses Vanities!!

2005-10-08T23:29:00.000+08:00

Me. Francis. Alex.. the 2 of them are such gorgeous people!! cheers