whimsicallyanni

Friday, January 27, 2006 dancingdancingdancingdancing

Saturday will be the day where we all have the reunion dinner. but sunday i wont see my mom and youngest sister. they will be back in ipoh whereas my dad and my second sister will stay in singapore with me.. sighs.. first day of chinese new year would definitely super bored.. i got a feeling that we will be at home watching tv to while away time. all my good frens will be visiting relatives they havent seen in years... sighs..

the second day of cny i will be visiting my dancer frens.. the weird thing is i am not even close to them.. sighs.. wat a way to spend my precious second day.3rd day, i would see my poly frens. haha.. i am amazed, the people i i will see on cny would be those that i dun often see.. but my poly frens are good frens to me. i am actually looking forward to it.finally i am meeting all my best frens only on sunday.. the 8th day of cny.. sighs..Jio me out if u free..i have to stop eating things on my left side..

i think my tooth is breaking down.. *cries* at last some long awaited pics.. dated at least 2 weeks back.. haha..

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at4:44 PM

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some japanese snacks that steven got for me from japan. it is super tasty.. really..

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my new fone ( 3 weeks alr) D500C

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they are huge, i swear

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balloons from alex.. tks..

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Wednesday, January 25, 2006 dancingdancingdancingdancing

today i received the most shocking msg of my lifetime.. i call him A.. apparantly he is my previous "ehem".. people close to me would know who he is.. it has been almost 2 years exactly.

"Heya Yanni,I know this is really overdue and I was kinda debating if I should do this but yes I owe you one. I'm sorry for whatever that has happened. I think most imptly I would like apologize most for the way I handled things. As I look back I do think I could have done much better but instead I screwed it up and I regret it. For all the pain caused, I'm sorry.And don't get me wrong I'm not msging u for any other motives. I just msged with the sole purpose saying my sorries. Its just one of those regrets in my life that I promise to sort out and thats why I'm here:) Okie thats it if u could just leave a reply telling me u received the msg thats all I ask for. Have a gd day:)"

sighs... it was a tough lesson that i learnt from him.. i am glad it is over and done with.. it leaves a permanent scar on me.

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at3:42 PM

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TUESDAY is always such a tiring day... 6 hours of lesson full on, 1.5 hours of kickboxing( yes.. it is EXERCISE) and 3+ hours of samba.. in the end i get home real late. I am grinning right now on a wednesday because it is not a school day.. haa.. but something interesting happend yesterday night. was in the mrt with joycelyn, the samba girl.. =).. we dropped at paya lebar, cuz her parents are gonna drive her home and since we lived pretty near, she decided to give me a lift. but her parents are taking too long to arrive.. and so i "asked" harold for a ride back.. haa!! and he is so nice.. after sending joycelyn back, we decided to go for a drink.. but i realise my wallet is missing. Apparantly i dropped it in station. harold called to get the # of paya lebar mrt station. luckily i managed to get hold of the station control manager and my wallet is with them.. what a close shave.. exaclty a year ago.. i lose my wallet just 2 days before chinese new year, but the kind taxi driver gave it back to me.. i didnt run out of luck this year too ( but not for handphones)... haa! but tks to harold..

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Tuesday, January 24, 2006 dancingdancingdancingdancing

after reading my sister's blog. i realise how i am never close to them. sighs. i never try to understand them. never know more about them, never was their close fren, never protect them, never bother about them and never play my part as my sister to them. i just live in my own world. they share things but i am never involved. i hardly remember or worse, never knew all the happenings that was mentioned. i am not a significant part of them in their lives.... again. i just live in own world.. i share things with frens but never with them, and thus they also never know much abt what has happened in my own world either. i dun blame them. i can blame no one. things like this are meant to happen and i am just out of their lives.. I never will be the person they would look up to..

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Monday, January 23, 2006 dancingdancingdancingdancing

TIGI BEDHEAD hair treatment.. extra goody stuff for my hair. haha! nice.. and the stylist at Toni and guy's is damn good at blow-drying hair. and now my hair is as straight as optical fibre. muaahhaha...

What am i gonna do on chinese new year? experience staying in singapore once several eyars back.. it was freakingly bored. i cant shop, only watch movie... remember to jio me out!!!

Time is passing so fast.. week 4 already.. meaning i am almost one third into the semester.. i wish summer vacation takes place faster. i want to go on a holiday. sighs..

Still listening to this song. dedicated to a certain living being. why must the world be this big?

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at10:08 PM

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i just posted this song in my blog. take a listen.i think it is nice. there are lotsa nice ones around. but somehow this song matches my feelings now.

i cannot find a blog counter for my blog, means i wont be able to know how many people visited my blog. do leave a msg if u are here. had my cough for more then 3 weeks. think i can cough myself to death easily..

Time is passing very fast. chinese new year is here. mom and youngest sis is going back to ipoh. leaving me and my second sis and dad here in singapore ( he doesnt wanna go back melaka).. think i will probably sleep my way through on new year's day. somehow, i dun really look forward to the new year. why? is it because i grown up?.. nothing much seems to fascinate me these days...

i still miss granny, i will take a trip back to msia after my exams this semester. maybe u wanna come with me for a cheap holiday. =)..

had a talk with a fren.I think maybe I am the one who doesnt appreciate myself...

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at12:28 AM

Saturday, January 21, 2006 dancingdancingdancingdancing

unappreciated... sad. Am i too hard on everyone?

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Thursday, January 19, 2006 dancingdancingdancingdancing

had a urge to listen to chinese songs this few days. was listening it just now after lunch. dunno why, tears began to swell. .... .... .... .... i can feel a sad sharp pain somewhere in my heart

tmr night is the campus's grand opening. there are gonna be performances and speeches and ceremony. will stay behind to listen to the bands and my lovely samba mates play. my drum instructors are performing too. they are good as usual.

miss my late night suppers and chats.

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at1:47 PM

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why do we only learn to cherish things only when we realise we losing them or After we lost them. Some people we know for the whole life, but we never bother to keep them in mind. Are u guilty of it? i am.

He is leaving soon. Never had a chance to be a good fren to him. okie.. *half an hour later*..i am stucked for half an hour on this part.. i dunno how to continue.. i Just CANNOT find words to describe my feelings now. I really cant. but i just feel like crying. Again. I wish i can turn back the clock.

This phrase suits me perfectly now. "Time lost is time gone forever". how true.

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at12:33 AM

Sunday, January 08, 2006 dancingdancingdancingdancing

I am weary of being myself.. i always have to perform to the expectation of others, where happen to me? where am i? who really understand me? who would know the real me? who will really appreciate me for who i am? i dunno know to answer these questions.. i am guilty of judging other people too and setting norms, it is normal but it hides many personalities of oneself.

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Saturday, January 07, 2006 dancingdancingdancingdancing

hello people. dunno if u are still reading my blog. Thanks to all the people who read my blog.. makes it worthwhile to sit in front of the computer to write abt my stupid, depressing life..but anyway. jsut to update abit..

sch started. this semester dun seem extremely friendly. buu i am still determined to put my best food forward. Time really flies.. 2005 is gone and 2006 is here.. it means we are at the second part of the decade.. if we round of the years, we are actually in 2010. sigh.. well.. it hasnt been exactly a good year.. but much better then 2004..nothing much memorable, maybe an occassional balding session, certain parties, certain nice birthday(s), certain drumming and jamming sessions, certain nice professor, certain people(s) and the week JUST before christmas which was good.. and my grandpa left us.. nothing else i would really remember..

oh.. And i just joined the KICKBOXING class each week.. good exercise right? plus my drumming sessions, and my modern dance classes.. i really want to spend my time wisely instead of hanging around people who make me feel that i am unwanted.

Chinese new year is drawing near. but this year i am really not excited really... I miss my mom's mom ( aka, Grandma) and mom's dad ( grandpa, but he is gone.. sheez.. i miss him all the time).but i guess i dun have a chance to visit grandma in msia this year.. i didnt get to see grandpa for the last time last year.. i wish i can spend more time with my loved ones.. will i ever get to see him again?

okie.. enought tears for the night.. look forward to life and i must never let them down..

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