whimsicallyanni

Tuesday, February 14, 2006 dancingdancingdancingdancing

This week is so stressed. four tests in a week. i think i have having problems with my memory. It just doesnt work and i cannot rem whateva i read.. and i did badly for my tests. i really hate myself for that.. why cant i just be as good as Xian or Shaun or ralf? i really dun expect too much. but just to do reasonably well. but i screwed up 2 tests alr, one of which i know the grades alr and i was below average. i take it too hard and reflect the grades on me personally. I feel so inadequate. is there something wrong with me? Maybe i shouldnt be in SMU. i really dun feel good abt it and in the midst of studying i would think of my grades and cry. 2 more tests to go. i dunno how i can get through after this week and look at my grades. i think i am in store for more lousy grades. I cannot take it already..

Wish i can still talk to him about it, but too bad he is no around now.

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at11:46 PM

Saturday, February 11, 2006 dancingdancingdancingdancing

we are talking again. but yeah. thats abt it.

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at12:34 AM

Tuesday, February 07, 2006 dancingdancingdancingdancing

He left.. without saying goodbye.. without me sending him and he didnt even receive my goodbye msg.. we will remain like this forever, never talking to each other again.. until years later. by then he probably have a happy life, got out of his own mess and carry on with his loved ones.. =(.. we were never good frens.. and he will never remember me..

sighs.... i think i am such a bad sister to her.. i cannot understand her and i think she dun like to talk to me.. i cannot get her respect as my sister... all my fault.. all along.. i dun try to urstd her. sighs..

i hate blogging.

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at12:10 AM