whimsicallyanni

Tuesday, March 28, 2006 dancingdancingdancingdancing

recently been listening to alot of songs. maybe because i have my ipod nano liao. it is really good. kills boredom most of the time. and i have many new favourite songs. Try Jheena Lodwick - Do that to me one more time. it is good i tell u. just ask me for the song i will send u.

23 years old already. cant help but say that time flies. SIghs.. it is amazing really. u recall the times when u are young, childishly playing around, trying to study hard. U can even remember how young your mother and father looks like. and now u see those facial lines and white hairs they have now. and how time is is mercilessly rushing ahead of you all the time. when you are younger, you can only picture yourself being the young, pretty adult in early twenties. but now, i think of how i will look like and where i will be when i am 30. it is freaky how our mindset changes with time and it is not by choice.

Being 23 means i am older then i was last year. My dad, every year will give me a speech, reminding me that, being older, i have to be wiser and i have to stop being my kiddy self.. i just nod and nod and nod. but do we really get that into our heads? sometimes, we have to appreciate our loved ones around us. if we dont cherish them or listen to them or appreciate their presence, we can only have ourselves to blame when they are not around next time. I am always thinking how sad and scary it would be if they are not around but yet we do not value the present all the time. Only after sometime ( just like now), we start to think and realign our thinking. but it is either too late or it will only persist only for a while.

I always wanted to study in a university. but now that i am in SMU, i think my grades are pretty sucky. not up to standard. and it is already year 2. i still have 1.5 more years to go. this 1.5 years will be crucial to me. i need to maintain my GPA. studying may not be everthing, but i dun wanna waste my time. i could have been working to support my mom, but here i am spending more money then earning. she had a hard life. and i really want to see her enjoy life abit more and i want to see her happy. well. i am glad that my sister i graduating in a few months, just that she hasn't got a job. hopefully she will soon.

Talking about my sister. i think we are drifting apart. partly because she is always in hostel, plus she dun come back that often and on top of that, i always come back late from school. i rem when we are young, we talk about more things and share more stuff..but now, it is amazing if we managed to talk more then 10 sentences. probably 8 are by me. oh wells...

okie..i should stop writing and get back to report writing. This summer vacation, i should be something really constructive. i want to learn how to use adobe Photoshop, continue my guitar ( a gift from my dad, he always say i am not patient in learning this, well i think as i grow older, my learning curve is slower and flatter. i wish i had learnt the piano when i was young. but somethings are just meant to be or not meant to be), lastly, i want to play more samba and drums. i am in love with it. I wish i have the talent and everlasting passion like Jerry. but more often then more, i am always thinking that i am very lousy. Is it true that the more u think u can do it, u can do it? for me, this is still on trial.

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