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Thursday, July 27, 2006 dancingdancingdancingdancing

a few weeks back, i borrowed this really thick picture book from the national library.. it is called "Cats in the Sun", By Han Silvester. He must be called silvester for a reason! =)

anway, this book is really good. it is the end results of Hans Silvester 3 year stay at the greek cycladic islands photographing cats. all in daytime.. Every picture was well taken. and i really enjoyed the book so much that i wanna buy this book.but it is not cheap. around 50plus bucks. =(. Why are books so expensive. we should all buy more books so that they will become cheaper!

Will post some pics of the cats on my multiply website soon! =)

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at2:55 PM

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Been sleeping really late and waking up really late! Sighs!. and my mom would nag at my absence everyday! Cant be helped. Samba is SO busy. Normal pract, Convo and upcoming arts fest, i think i will be in school almost everyday!

I feel so detached from the outside world. always "basking" in past memories and wishing that time will not pass so fast without me realising it. i really wanna find some way to preserve my youth.

Some of my frens are not too well recently, particulary one. Hope he can be strong and overcome his health problems as soon as possible.

School is starting soon. besides school work and samba, i am also TA-ing ( teaching assistant) a marketing prof. I really want to be of some help to some people and really excel is this semester! i canno afford to slack anymore. i really cant.

I need to read more books! anyone has good books to recommend?

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at2:38 PM

Sunday, July 23, 2006 dancingdancingdancingdancing

He seems happy over there. And i really hope he is really happy. But i kinda miss him. Sighs. Though it doesnt really matter that he doesnt think of me. I am pretty over it, i think.

And, i forget about his birthday. Sorry. and belated happy birthday!

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at1:21 AM

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Some pictures of Samba Masala at the gig at Singtel Trade show! I love my band and hopefully, i can keep on playing for a long time to come.

Some of the girls~!

Partial Gang including all those present~!

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at1:11 AM

Friday, July 21, 2006 dancingdancingdancingdancing

i realise that my colleague used to have no ill-feelings against me and that she was complimenting me when i just joined.. but when we went into 5 weeks later, everyting change and i know for sure that i leave no good impression on her now. it is really sad that i actually made a person who liked me changed to someone who disliked me.. Somehow i wish it hasnt happened. even talking about it made me feel bad.

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at1:08 AM

Monday, July 17, 2006 dancingdancingdancingdancing

recently realise that I am too dependent on confiding in one person. But i know that i should not too reliant on this person. But somehow i cannot help it, even though i know Nothing will come out of it. Maybe i really just need to find some one else to confide in.

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at1:24 AM

Friday, July 14, 2006 dancingdancingdancingdancing

Finally got my blog started up once more. Today is that last day of my 5 weeks internship at my advertising agency.. I thought i would really enjoy working there 5 weeks ago but somehow i didnt. This is extremely contradictory because most of the people there are Very nice and all of them are cat lovers, so we have a common interest. But somehow i realise working with perfectionists(one of my colleague) is really very hard because I am an extremely laid back person and i cannot conform to rules very well.

Some incidents that i faced.
- We had different ways of working and during times when i didnt do it the way this person would have done, I would have tried to follow this person's way of doing it. and it is quite daunting
- fierce persona. makes it hard for me to approach this person.
- Sometimes dealing with this person is enough to fill me for the entire day, without really trying to figure how things work in my company and thus i still dunno 100% of what is going on in the daily operations.
- Difficulties in communication. We seem to be on different wave lengths and somehow i cannot understand this person, no matter how hard i tried. And this person also cannot understand me. because when he/she realsie that i am not "getting" her idea, he/she will try to explain to me in the idiot-proof and i mean really "idiot-proof". i felt like an idiot, really. There could be other ways of explaining to me then treating me as an idiot right?.

But most of the time(Except for today, the last day. I kept quiet but i was blowing up inside), i would think it is my fault and try to anticipate her way of thinking but it doesnt really work out all the time. Or maybe people have high expectations of me and if i cannot perform up to expectations, i will really piss them off and myself too.

Another thing i hate about myself is, i allowed myself to be easily flustered and having a really bad memory.. The tall big strappy me is actually very easily scared. If my boss is fierce, i might just be as quiet as a mouse.. and things they have said before, they have to repeat one more time for me to recall. But memory can be trained. the former point is permanent i think. sighs.

But all that aside, i think she is one of the most witty and capable women i ever seen. And still, i hold her in high regards.

WHen i first joined the company,i thought i would leave happily. I did leave feeling relieved but not happy because i chose to give up my internship before it reaches the designated date. I can give all kinds of reasons i want, the work dont suit me, there are people i cannot get along with, i got a poor understanding of the person/work. etc etc..BUT the fact is. i have given up on my own accord.

And i really hate that feeling.

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at10:16 PM